Pretty Woman

December 1st, 2019

By Michelle Bruno

Artwork by Maddy Meredith

Pretty Woman

 

Why is it that

No matter how much I do 

It always feels as though

It is not enough 

Or perhaps

I am not 

enough 

 

What are these bonds which hold me 

Captive

 

Why is my skin so difficult to live in 

 

Is it the weight of being a woman in a world 

that does not seem to make room for me 

 

Or the weight of all who have come before

Telling me they have sacrificed in vain

 

Perhaps it is the weight of the future 

Telling me I needed to have done

More

 

Family 

Friends

Academia 

Colleagues 

Work

 

All seem to want more

And more

And more

 

Does no one see that I am so 

Completely 

Intrinsically 

Painfully 

Tired?

 

Of not being all that is expected of me 

 

For not filling into all the shoes before me

Or every hat thrown on me

 

For not bowing down on my knees and thanking for the small spaces given to me

In which I do not have room to grow

Without sacrificing some part of myself 

 

For not smiling enough

In a world that objectifies, belittles, reduces, threatens and violates me 

and so many like me

 

For not being able to 

Do it 

All

Be it 

All

Overcome it

All. 

 

Daughter, Sister, Friend, Girlfriend, Wife, Mother

 

Expected to be 

 

Student, Teacher, Psychologist, Mediator, Outlet

 

An Ideal..

 

Kind

Patient

Delicate 

Not-too-smart

And Pretty

Pretty Tired.